the same power...

By Mark Bacolod

​The past 2 month have been a roller coaster. Accomplishing much and little simultaneously, my inner perfectionist has driven by fear impersonating wisdom. I’ve been afraid of making a mistake. Making something ugly. Ruining a work halfway through, or botching it at the end. I’ve been afraid to take risks when it matters, or playing it safe at the expense of creative breakthrough but leaving countless works sighing with the longing for something more. The question remains as I work on this project: Am I staying satisfied with good, but falling short of the brilliance I know could be?

Hillsong United wrote these verses in one of my favorite worship songs:

The same power that conquered the grave
Lives in me.
Your love that rescued the earth
Lives in me

The past 2 month have been a roller coaster. Accomplishing much and little simultaneously, my inner perfectionist has driven by fear impersonating wisdom. I’ve been afraid of making a mistake. Making something ugly. Ruining a work halfway through, or botching it at the end. I’ve been afraid to take risks when it matters, or playing it safe at the expense of creative breakthrough but leaving countless works sighing with the longing for something more. The question remains as I work on this project: Am I staying satisfied with good, but falling short of the brilliance I know could be?
The same power that conquered the grave
Lives in me.
Your love that rescued the earth
Lives in me
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God’s Grave Conquering Work Done these past few months:
• A 13 week Alpha Program
• A Bible Study in Ephesians
• A Health Expo at a community center
• A Date set for a future Community Health Day
• An Initial Group of Core Volunteers for Community Health Day

But It’s been the in-between moments, the glimpses, the pauses with God in the fire of trials and tribulation, therein lies the sweetness of this thing called soul formation. The idea that it's ok to fail, to make mistakes, to make a mess, clean it up and learn from the journey. The idea that when its not what you expect, you adjust; and sometimes things just don't turn out like we want them to, and that's ok. The power I've experienced is that It's who we are becoming in the process that matters.